OCD BAD THOUGHTS

I’m not sure what has happened that has triggered the dark side of my OCD, but something has tripped it, and out of the blue…BAM!

Maybe it’s from some of the mental health YouTube videos that I’ve been watching lately, or simply because I’ve been keeping up with the news again..

But my OCD bad thoughts, has been really bad today, so I’m turning in early to keep my brain from over thinking.

I’ve been studying sleep paralysis more lately, and how when you sleep, you actually become legit, paralyzed in many ways.

This controls your body from hurting itself while dreaming, and acting out our dreams, along with controlling our bladders. Very fascinating to me!

I’d much rather have my mind focus on things that interest me, then horrible sceneries that would never actually happen, but in my mind; insists on playing them out.

Or questioning them…

Then to make matters worst, I need to satisfy my curiosity and Google the odds. Or, figure out if, and when it’s ever happened.

Oh to be normal.

But then again, what is normal?

And is being normal, actually normal?!

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December part 1

Fall, in general, is always the busiest time of year for me. It starts off with three birthdays in October, and then carries onto another three in November. Throw in Halloween and Thanksgiving, Black Friday ….and then December is here.

My wedding anniversary is this month.

99% of my shopping has been done.

Children’s activities are in full swing, and the little down time at home that we have is spent on baking, decorating, and Christmas movies.

I’m not complaining, in fact, I love it. So much!

I can’t imagine a life without family things.

My kids are a huge part of my life.

I thought as they got older, it would start to feel somewhat empty. But I’m quickly realizing that it’s even more fulfilling.

I love being a mother so much!

I have never been able to relate to other mothers who complain about their kids, or look forward to having them in school, and not at home.

Of course this is the only life I’ve ever known. And my kids are extremely well behaved, and genuinely enjoy spending time with each other.

I suppose if there was arguing and fighting all day, I’d feel very different about family life.

I think we want to give our children the life we never had. And for me, it was two very absentee parents. So for my family life, stability and focus, has always been my number one priority. It’s important to me, for my kids to have the stability and unconditional love that I never had growing up.

And that’s all I’m going to share on that.

I need to get up out of bed and get motivated. I see that my daughter has left me a cup of tea next to my bed before she left for class this morning. ❤️

I’ve been laying here since 6am thinking about this coming week.

We leave in a few days for a mini vacation.

My husband surprised me with K-Love Christmas concert tickets, and I’m very excited. He’s very introverted and doesn’t like crowds, so this really was a true act of LOVE. ❤️

Moving on to some activities in pictures.

Our first snow! It’s been in the 30’s. ❄️🌨

Stunning picture of our American flag that I took in Greensboro, NC the other day.

Cementing head in microwave

So this is just a screenshot from the bizarre trending story from the other day.

But I do encourage you to Google the video or story so that you can question human behavior also.

Just when you think you have seen and heard it all.

But hey, he has now had his fifteen minutes of fame.

North Carolina Snow Storm

So we have our first snow. ❄️😃

Headed out to pick up some staples. The stores have plenty of milk and bread, but what’s going on with the Sunny D shortage. 😳

Not that I buy it, just pointing it out. 😁

I went to pick up a DVD for the kids to have a marathon tonight, but it looks as if everyone had the same idea.

Got the last one, along with some snacks!

And I didn’t leave myself out.

Remember, all about balance. 😁

I also want to share, that wile out and about during this time of year, or really anytime of year… it only takes a second to steal someone’s bag, so I like to always hook it up in the child seat. Like so-Yes, someone can still grab it, but you will have time to interview with it fastened. ;)My cousin has had her purse stolen from Walmart twice this year, hence this use. Anyone getting any snow yet? 10pm update:

8am next day:

2017 Holiday Bucket List

This was our Holiday Bucket List this year.

1. Buy new tree & decorate as a family.***

2. Buy everyone a new ornament.***

3. Christmas Caroling

4. Watch seven Christmas movies.***

5. Go to Tanglewood light festival.

6. Go to Christmas concert.(Have tickets for next week)

7. Spend weekend at a nice hotel and relax.(happening next weekend)

8. Bake Christmas cookies & surprise friends.

9. Christmas Cards out by the 10th. ***

10. Black Friday Christmas Shopping.***

11. Read a couple Holiday themed books.**

12. Buy Christmas dress.

13. Build Gingerbread House***

14. Make a Holiday themed coffee,cocoa, cider bar.***

15. Decorate whole house in Christmas decor.***

16. Buy Christmas bed sheets.

17. Visit a Holiday craft show. ***

18. Treat myself to a Holiday eye shadow palette.***

19. Christmas craft Day

20. Ugly sweater Christmas party

Rashes: Walmart Clothing

As many of my regular blog readers know, I’ve been on a Walmart purse kick these past few months. I now own three Walmart purses.

To be honest though, one is falling apart already. Fast fashion will never hold up. 😔

However, since I was surprised to have found a few hidden Walmart purse gems, I decided to revisit their Faded Glory clothing line.

I use to love their George line, but it has been discontinued for years. At least in my neck of the woods. It was made well though.

So the other day I stumbled across these comfy pull over tunics. They had a regular price of $7.97ea, but were reduced to $5 each.

I grabbed three of them.

Where else could you get three tops for $15.

Well, a thrift store of course! But these were new and on clearance so I decided to give them a whirl. I bought a gray, green, and pink one.

I didn’t notice a smell at the time, but I’m not in the habit of sniffing my purchases.

I came home, took the tags off, and set them on the dresser.

The following day I wore the pink one.

I loved the true to size fit, and complimenting sleeves and neckline.

I felt good in it. It was also a nice longer length that covered the bum area. Something my modest self always appreciates.

About an hour after wearing the new top, I broke out in an arm and chest rash.

I assumed it was from a new perfume I tried out earlier in the day, so just went about my business.

It was itchy, but not over bearing enough to take a benedryl.

That night I tossed in it in the laundry pile.

The next day I put on the gray one, and I didn’t have any perfume on at all,but sure enough… arm and chest rash started in.

It was a bit more itchy then the previous day.

But again, I went about the day, showered that night..

About thirty minutes after getting my PJ’s on, the rash went away. So I didn’t give it another thought.

This takes me to today, I woke up and noticed a chemically smell in the bedroom.

I got dressed, placing the green tunic on, and within moments I realized that the smell was the top I was wearing.

I went and picked up the other two tops to see if they had the smell, and although it wasn’t as pungent as the green one, they did have a strange chemical odor.

My daughter walked over to me and gave me a hug, then she asked what that odd smell was. And by that time my arms were breaking out with the rash.

I quickly showered and changed, and then decided to Google Walmart clothing to see if anyone else in the world was having these issues. And sure enough… I had my reading cut out for me.

People all over were saying that they have had rashes, and that certain Walmart clothing items stink. Specifically their denim jeggings.

Many claimed that after you wash the garments, they smell even worst.

Some people have claimed that it’s all the insecticides used in the wear houses, while others claim it’s the cheap dyes that are used when processing.

I have not tried washing them yet, but plan to later tonight. I am going to add a bit of vinegar to the wash. Some folks have said they have tried everything to get the stench out, but vinegar was one of the only things that worked. Sort of.

So, I guess I’m back to only buying ‘new to me’ clothing. I’m very big on recycling, and I’d much rather purchase high-end gently worn clothing that’s made well, then cheap clothing that are filled with irritants.

Perhaps it’s only people with sensitive skin though, such as myself. Who knows, but I’m not willing to go through this again.

Let me know what f anyone else has ever had this happened to them. 😐

Revlon All In One Mascara

I know I’m late to the party, as this mascara has been out for over a year. I think it may hVe launched the end of 2015. 🤔

Everyone and their cousins sister has been raving about this particular mascara. My friends have all asked me about it, and even my daughter told me how great it was.

But seeing as I’ve become somewhat of a high end mascara snob, I’ve been using Benefits they’re real mascara for over a year, and simply love it. I also use the matching mascara primer. And when I want something different on the lower end, I enjoy Hard Candy’s lash ink mascara, which lasts for 3-4 days with no touch ups.

That shared, while I was at Walmart last night, I noticed the Revlon mascara display and noticed this mascara.

Thoughts popped into my head of everyone who has told me how great it was.. and for under five dollars, I thought I’d give it a go.

I decided to try it this morning and as soon as I opened it, I knew it was not going to be good.

Like, what is this gloppy mess?! Really!

Wayyy too much comes out and there seems to be a huge opening without that added plastic piece that is suppose to wipe off the extra mascara from he wand. As you can see, it’s a huge mess!

I did try it out, but it was so horrible looking that I didn’t even take a picture of the mess. It clumped all my eye lashes together.. just as I expected it would. And looked as if I had a black eye when trying to remove it.

It just seems like such a waste if I have to tissue off all the added product left on the wand every time I use it. I did like the size of the small wand. It’s the formula that was the issue.

So I will be bringing it back to the store tonight for a refund.

I showed my daughter and she said that hers didn’t look like this, so perhaps it was a bad batch.

But for now, I will continue on with what I know works.

Has anyone else had a similar experience with this one?

Polishing silver

I picked this up last night. I think it was about $5.99

I tried a few online DIY remedies, but they did not work all they well. I do normally just use the baking soda method though. Mainly, because it’s not toxic. But when I saw this silver cleaner, it just seemed so easy to use. And it was!

Beautiful! Beautiful!

The above are an up close picture Tiffany & Co pieces all polished up. Again, I really wish I would have thought to take before pictures. But I had originally only planned to clean my sugar & creamer set, and while I was polishing, my daughter brought out some other pieces that needed polishing.

By that time I had my gloves and mask on. 😷

There is a reason this silver cleaner is illegal in the state of California. The smell is toxic!

Oh but the out come…😁🌟

Does anyone else still use silver?

Suspended from EBay

Well, I got suspended from eBay today. Just for a week. (This is why you have to have multiple accounts, btw)

This morning I woke up to an email saying that the Vero program flagged a pair of men’s Shockwave boxing shorts. They were flagged.

In Layman’s terms…Along with many other companies, their name is trademarked and they do not want anyone purchasing any of their shorts anyplace other then their website.

Or, unless you have purchased a valid license to sell their merch.

There are many people who sell retail arbitrage, such as Nikes, but they have all gone through proper protocol and bought a license.

I can see if I was trying to sell hundreds of their shorts, but trying to sell one lousy pair, that have already been purchased…

It’s just absurd. Really!

It has always been about the money, and always will be. I s’pose.

It’s not eBay’s fault. They are just trying to avoid any lawsuits. This is 100% understandable.

I’m told this time of year, many companies are in full force with their police.

There are people hired to just scan eBay all day and flag any post that has their company name on it. They simply do it want anyone getting a deal on their overpriced retail Merch.

I looked over a list of three thousand words, and brands today that don’t take kindly to you reselling their goods. Even if they have already been bought and made their money the first time around.

How silly of us to think that once we purchase something, it then belongs to us. 😐

I’m trying to imagine a world where nothing can be recycled. Clothing wise. Our poor landfills. As is, not every one is diligent with recycling.

So if I sound upset, I actually am.

Not at eBay though.

At least eBay is not the only platform I’m selling on, so my income has not ceased. But the reason behind the suspension really irks me. Yet, I understand.

My disappointment should be on all the greedy companies. And yes, it is..

Small Talk

Mishmash of thoughts today-

What would the world look like with no opinions, unless asked?

Better yet, what would the world look like if we listened more then we spoke. What if our focus was more-so on keeping quiet and blessing others.

How would this effect people’s mental state.

So many people have self doubt on the daily.

They question everything. It seems as if everyone needs approval in order to get through a day. Yes, I do blame social media for this. Which is why I will never, ever go back to it. (Insert opinion) 😉

Recently, I had someone staying with me at my house that kept asking me if such and such was my favorite.

Ex. If I wore black two days in a row or used the same coffee mug, they would ask me if it was my favorite.

I kept saying no. And I was being honest.

Truth is, I don’t really put much thought into things that I do on the daily.

I’ve become more of a grab and go type of person.

But being asked so many times if something was my favorite and then feeling the need to explain why it wasn’t, was exhausting.

This got me thinking of what a world might look like if we agreed with everything.

If asked if such and such was my favorite, I could have simply said yes.

If someone asks if I like such and such.. say yes! (This would have put an end to many a debate in the past.)

These are small things, mind you. I’m not talking about world events, religion, or any thing heavy.

Just small chat, where by agreeing with the other person, you are actually performing a selfless act of making that other person feel good.

I know we all have opinions. And that’s normal. But on the other side of the token, it does, and has, caused so much division among family and friends.

So I’m going to challenge myself starting tomorrow.

In fact, I technically already started.

I was at Walmart tonight and while looking at the Christmas decor, a lady next to me held up some gaudy looking garland and looked at me with a smile, and said…”Sure is beautiful huh?”

Did I think it was beautiful? No. I thought it was gaudy. But what good would have came if I would have told her that. Instead,

I agreed with her. She smiled and then picked up a couple more packs and off she went.

I also stopped to help an older woman choose a tree and ornaments. She didn’t ask, but she looked like she needed a helping hand. In doing so.. she shared bits about her life with me.

As I’m getting older, (today was my birthday,btw) I’m realizing that I never want to be too busy to help a stranger.

I don’t want to be so caught up with myself that I can’t smile back at someone, or help them put there groceries in there car if they are struggling.

I don’t want to loose sight and become blinded by what’s happening around me. I don’t want to be self absorbed 24/7.

As cliche’ as it sounds, true happiness & contentment really does have more to do with helping others..

Everything always seems to just work itself out organically when you know who’s driving your steering wheel in life.

The Lord is my Sheppard, and has never once led me astray.

I want to bless others and become as selfless as I can.

I want to make people smile again. ❤️