We started praying for Gods leading of whether or not we should stay here to live or move once more. We had both grown spiritually these past 3 years and we learned a lot about life. We also effected many lives. DH’s family all moved down here due to the cost of living as well as a couple coworkers my Dh had up North. It was defiantly Gods plan for us to move down here but now what?
As we were praying..I started reconnecting and talking more frequently with my best friend from back home that moved a month before we did. Her family moved to Pennsylvania .
Soon after this, Pennsilvania just started popping up, in dreams,on the news,in programs etc…not once, twice, or even three times,many times. Destiny? Fate? IDK!
We automatically thought it was ALL from God. BUT, what if it was from a spirit of confusion we thought to ourselves? So we planned a trip up there to visit. During our trip there… back in Janruary, my husband dreaded the whole 3 days. He was misrable with a capital M!!
He told me over and over again that there is no peace for our family up there…I begged him to explain further..Yes, I’m human, I wanted to know these things, in detail too!
I also just wanted to get as far as away from the South as I possible could, and while PA. was not my blessed New England..it sure was closer then NC ever will be! I also was wrapped up in the fact that PA. kept popping up and wanted to believe it was Gods will for me to live there.
I was in denial. Plain and Simple! I see this crystal clear now..I felt the Lord speaking to me in so many ways but selfishly ignored what I was hearing. I had so much energy and time invested in being miserable that I actually convinced myself that my kids were also not happy here. Secretly, I think they were not happy because they saw through my smile each day and knew I was not happy. *G*
My heart has changed about so many things that I feel liberated. Something I am not sure that I have ever felt before. As for today, I feel carefree!
I felt hopeful that we were going to move to Pennsylvania right up until the 29th of June and here it is only July 10th today. I was still planning in my head the move as if it were a done deal. Sure I missed the comforts of my own home …We had just looked at a house on the 28th and I was already telling my Dh what color carpets we should get for the living room! OH MAN! Isn’t it amazing the power the Lord has on us!
We were suppose to stay until July 5th. But I kept hearing the Lord clearly whisper to me..Go home… I admit, I said..Home Lord? Where is that? I don’t have a home yet?
The Lord said, “Yes you do..in NORTH CAROLINA!!
Will this feeling last forever? I have no idea…
It brings tears to my eyes to have this magnificent peace in my life at the moment.
Praise the Lord! I have repented for my selfishness and stubbornness and pray that I will no longer ignore Gods tender loving merciful voice.
I can see now that when the Lord speaks to me, it is not going to be through a materialistic intervention. It is going to be threw his son…. Jesus Christ!!!!
Do you hear him? Are you Listening? I sure hope so…